Growing up, I had no idea that biting my nails, picking at my skin, having a million thoughts in my head, and being sad and anxious all the time were anything other than my normal. It became second nature to hide or compensate for all these things, so much so that now many people would have no idea the thoughts that go through my mind or the parts of my life I hide from everyone but myself.
The amazing thing, however, is that some of the same parts of my brain that cause me anguish - lack of follow through, lack of focus, nervous energy - are the exact reasons I care so much, have such varied interests, and can get a lot of shit done. My therapist has said on many occasions that he is surprised I can cope as well as I do, and to be honest, so am I. The hard part, though, is giving myself enough time to recover from these sprints of mental energy.
I hope this blog helps even one person to understand that, just because you may have some weaknesses or perceived deficiencies, you still have strengths. Whether or not you think they compensate for those weaknesses is your opinion, but I'm betting that they make you a stronger person than you realize.